Monday, January 18, 2010
I woke up this morning from a dream that was profound in many ways. I dreamt I was with my sisters and we were all in a parking garage. I guess about to go to some event or something. Then this guy (I know the guy but can’t think of his name. He grew up in Perryman and might I add was fine as hell in my dream) walks up and stood beside me in a way that only a man you were involved with would stand. I remember feeling uncomfortable because my sister Roz was walking up. I was thinking why is he standing so close with his arm around me? Didn’t he and Roz used to mess around a long time ago or maybe they were just really good friends? I couldn’t remember but just in case I tried to sneakily move away from his grip around my waist and he gently held on. Roz approached us and they hugged and chatted for a minute. She didn’t seem to think anything was out of the ordinary.
Then he looks at me as we all are walking off to go wherever we where going and says “walk directly behind me”. The whole time in my dream I’m confused about what the hell is going on but I follow his lead anyway. We start off walking at a swift pace and the strange thing is the guy has now changed into someone else. He is no longer the guy from Perryman. I know this because I recognize how this other man looks from behind. The other strange thing is he is only the other guy when I’m walking behind him. Whenever he turns to speak he becomes the guy from Perryman again. Twice he turns around during our swift walk and looks back at me and says “walk directly behind me; you keep going off to the left a little bit”. Like an obedient child I tried my best to follow his instructions. The walk sped up to a quick trot and I was impressed with how well I was keeping up. Then it sped up more and he didn’t have to instruct me anymore. Our steps were completely in the same rhythm even though he awkwardly had his hand behind his back holding on to mine. Once the stairs came into view I noticed he eased up a little bit and our quick trot turned back into a swift walk. As if he knew he had to slow it down; maybe I couldn’t handle going up those steps that fast and he was being protective. While going up the steps he turned to look back at me and said are you ok? At this point the man who turned to speak to me was no longer the guy from Perryman but the guy who I was running with the whole time. I looked up and smiled with pride because I was keeping up, I was walking behind and we were in sync. It felt great.
I think I know what this dream was trying to teach me. I need to allow my partner (or my future partner) more ability to lead while trusting he won’t let me fall. Giving up your power or control and allowing someone else to lead you is a scary thing. I just don’t know why it was one man doing all the talking (until the very end) and another man I was walking with? Any ideas? Let me know what you think.
Then he looks at me as we all are walking off to go wherever we where going and says “walk directly behind me”. The whole time in my dream I’m confused about what the hell is going on but I follow his lead anyway. We start off walking at a swift pace and the strange thing is the guy has now changed into someone else. He is no longer the guy from Perryman. I know this because I recognize how this other man looks from behind. The other strange thing is he is only the other guy when I’m walking behind him. Whenever he turns to speak he becomes the guy from Perryman again. Twice he turns around during our swift walk and looks back at me and says “walk directly behind me; you keep going off to the left a little bit”. Like an obedient child I tried my best to follow his instructions. The walk sped up to a quick trot and I was impressed with how well I was keeping up. Then it sped up more and he didn’t have to instruct me anymore. Our steps were completely in the same rhythm even though he awkwardly had his hand behind his back holding on to mine. Once the stairs came into view I noticed he eased up a little bit and our quick trot turned back into a swift walk. As if he knew he had to slow it down; maybe I couldn’t handle going up those steps that fast and he was being protective. While going up the steps he turned to look back at me and said are you ok? At this point the man who turned to speak to me was no longer the guy from Perryman but the guy who I was running with the whole time. I looked up and smiled with pride because I was keeping up, I was walking behind and we were in sync. It felt great.
I think I know what this dream was trying to teach me. I need to allow my partner (or my future partner) more ability to lead while trusting he won’t let me fall. Giving up your power or control and allowing someone else to lead you is a scary thing. I just don’t know why it was one man doing all the talking (until the very end) and another man I was walking with? Any ideas? Let me know what you think.
Originally posted by Ms. Angela's Stuff at 11:19 AM
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